Fawad,are you bored with me?

Dear my blog,first of all..maybe I dont introduce my boyfriend yet with you,but I promise I'll tell you everything about our relationship.from the first time untill what gonna heppend that time when I tell you.but you must to know.his name is FAWAD.Fawad Salam that's his full name.he came to my life,almost 1 month and our relationship is almost 1 month too in 26 of august this year.

Dear my bloggydoggy,
This guy come from a faraway place from indonesia.and we call that pakistan.we are so diffrent.we had 2 hours diffrent,we had diffrent language,we had diffrent gender.of course..hehehe,and we had a diffrent mind too I guess.
But we had a same thing.
We was born to be a muslim people and we love each other.that's maybe.
Because,I dont know.he love me? I mean like I did?I won't to answer and I dont want to try to answer.I WON'T!

Dear my bloggydoggy.
tonight I went to sleep early.but when clock is 23:25 I woke up again.and you know,the first thing I did is sent bbm for him to let him know..I went to sleep.but unfornunately,I can't do this mission quickly.actually,I can't sleep now...

Dear my blog,
Honestly,there is something still around my mind.that's started when I went to sleep. "Are you bored with me?"That's the word.
Yes.you right.that's for my beloved man in this time.Fawad :)

Dear my blog,did you think I'm crazy?
I mean because I can loving someone who I never met before?
Because I can fell in love with this mr.pakistan?
Because I can loving someone who is real but I can't feel him?I can't touch him?I can't hold him?I can't see him?
Yes.maybe I'm being crazy but not at all...
I know is weird.but if you ask me "yola,are you really2 loving this stranger?" I just wanna answer "I do.yes I do" yes.I love this stranger with my heart.

Dear my blog,
I know,many things is so complicated to understanding but,this is my new story.my new love story with mr.pakistan and I do I love him...
Honestly,tonight I'm so worry...
I won't a bad things visit my life again when I still with my xboyfriend.

Dear my blog,did you think he love me?did he love me like as I did?if your answer is no,I won't to hear that.because I won't to broke everything I built so far..
Dear my blog,you know what?I love this stranger with my heart.all my heart even I dont know he love me TRUE OR NOT.

dear my blog,I just believe everything is gonna be alright cause we had Allah.we had a same God.
Dont you think,many humans in this world,why Allah sent him for me now?
Many country in this world,why I fell in lve with the guy from pakistan?
I know...he is my exam from Allah,can I keep him to stay with me?or NOT?that's a Secret.
And I believe Allah have a beautiful plan for you and me my beloved. :) :')

Fawad,I know I can't to hope more from this relationship.because I'm still worry to make a big hope with this relationship,
Cause you always affraid to hurt me,you affraid we dont get marry together.even I know u wouldn't hurt me.
Even I always make u sure everything is gonna be alright...
Baby,you know..I'm affraid too,but I won't you can see that.
And you must to know,I love you.my love still growing everyday...and I love you with my heart..

Fawad,are you bored with me?if the answer is yes I won't to hear that because I won't to leave you and I won't to make everything is over.

Fawad,do you love me?u can answer this question if u already with everything and when I'm sure,the word "are you bored with me" is gone from my mind :)