Happy B'day my dear sista,Irana gusTYA shaqira ^^

Malem ini,hal yang mau gue ceritain adalah...jreng-jreng,
Ya..udah ketawan dari judulnya lah.ini hari ultah kakak pertama gue.namanya IRANA GUSTYA SHAQIRA.sebagai bocoran ni blog,
Ni cewek udah tua,heheheeh (damai ya kakak ku sayaaaang :p) kali ini umurnya 22 tahun. :)
Setiap malem bobo bareng ama dia.kalo dia si mungkin udah 22 tahun kenal gue,kalo gue mah baru 17 taun.tapi udah tau luar dalem pastinya.soal apa aja tau semua.style ngupil,underwear,suara kentut masing2 iramanya gimana,tauuuu semuanya deh.
Sampe-sampe ya,waktu kecil gue suka "ngemilin" upil dia tau juga.hahahaha..
Pokoknya mungkin dia itu tau semua ttg gue.

Lo tau gak si blog,hari ini gue cuma ngucapin happy b'day ama dia dari bbm aja,ya..Lo tau lah kan,gue orangnya GENGSI tingkat TINGGI.
Gak tau ya,kalo mau sayang2an ama keluarga itu malu ada,gengsi ada.tergolong segan kali ya?pokoknya gue itu orangnya paling gak suka keliatan malu di depan orang lain.gak terkecuali keluarga sendiri.
Jadi kalo gue sayang2an gitu ama keluarga pengen mewek.trus gue harus pasrah jadi muka tomat.
Itu yang gak gue suka.tapi tanpa kalian taupun gue cinta banget sama kalian!

Oh ya,balik lagi ke ultah kak tya,hari ini luar biasa banget...kita pergi makan bareng,termasuk om mifta sama mbak neneng pembantu gue.
Walaupuun harus sedih karena ninggalin kuma sendirian huhuhu T_T
,tapi kuma pasti maklum buat hari besar kak tya ini :)

Balik dari sana,sekarang gue duduk berdua ama dia (kak tya) tapi dia gak nyadar deh gue lagi buat blog buat dia :)
Gilanya lagi,turun dari mobil pun dia bilang "pasti lagi nulis blog deh"
Yaaaa,lo bener banget sist,
Dan sayangnya lo gak tau kalo blog ini gue tulis tentang Lo,hari ultah Lo! :) ♥

Sista,I wanna tell you something..

Makasi ya selama ini selalu baik sama gue,
Selalu ada buat gue,
Inget banget sist,pas lo nyeramahin karena gue abis putus ama mantan gue sebelum gue pacaran sama fawad..
Makasi karena selalu bisa nerima kekurangan gue yang nyatanya emang lebih banyak dari kelebihan gue,
Makasi karena selalu anter jemput gue,
Dengerin curhat gue
Nraktir gue kalo banyak rezeky,
Selalu mau foto2in gue,
Ya..timbal balik lah,
Dan makasi juga selalu perhatian dan perduli sama gue yang bawel ini,...
•Kak tya,gue cinta banget sama lo,karena lo kakak gue sampe kapan juga.
Semoga kita selalu sama2 sampe ultah lo yang berikut2nya....

Love you much as I did to love daddy,mommy,sista fika and jauza...

Love...yola ♥

should i ?

Dear my bloggydoggy,
Maybe this time I will tell you about him...
I will tell you about my heart feeling..
I don't know how can to start this,I don't know...now he bought me headache..
I'm crying now?no!I'm not..
Because I know,he never wanna give he's tears for me..
So,how can I spent my tears to him?
Today,I was so empty!I know something changed he's feeling with me,
I know,I realise,and I feel...

Dear you my blog,can you tell me everything is gonna be alright?
I don't care how could you,I don't care how would you...I just wanna know,
That's what happened to me,I know everything is gonna be alright.MAYBE...

If you tought that's I fell in love with the wrong person,so...what can I do?should I forget him?should I leaving him?should I to make everything is over?
Oh come on!I won't to be a loser for twice,
Loser cause I try to lying with my self.I lying cause,actually I need him.

There is many thing happened since he came to my life.I can opened mt heart,I can laugh,I can smile and I can to alowed him to make me fell in with him..
But,he said he won't to make me hurt.and than what did u do now?
Don't you think this is can make everything be so trouble?

Maybe I never know if I didn't ask you about this,
But should I to ask with you before I realise that by my self?

Everything - Lifehouse

THANKS TO GAVE ME THIS SONG....Fawad,

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?






Than,I can't to tell you...

FINALLY,i can make a beautiful words for you :)

Fawad,are you bored with me?

Dear my blog,first of all..maybe I dont introduce my boyfriend yet with you,but I promise I'll tell you everything about our relationship.from the first time untill what gonna heppend that time when I tell you.but you must to know.his name is FAWAD.Fawad Salam that's his full name.he came to my life,almost 1 month and our relationship is almost 1 month too in 26 of august this year.

Dear my bloggydoggy,
This guy come from a faraway place from indonesia.and we call that pakistan.we are so diffrent.we had 2 hours diffrent,we had diffrent language,we had diffrent gender.of course..hehehe,and we had a diffrent mind too I guess.
But we had a same thing.
We was born to be a muslim people and we love each other.that's maybe.
Because,I dont know.he love me? I mean like I did?I won't to answer and I dont want to try to answer.I WON'T!

Dear my bloggydoggy.
tonight I went to sleep early.but when clock is 23:25 I woke up again.and you know,the first thing I did is sent bbm for him to let him know..I went to sleep.but unfornunately,I can't do this mission quickly.actually,I can't sleep now...

Dear my blog,
Honestly,there is something still around my mind.that's started when I went to sleep. "Are you bored with me?"That's the word.
Yes.you right.that's for my beloved man in this time.Fawad :)

Dear my blog,did you think I'm crazy?
I mean because I can loving someone who I never met before?
Because I can fell in love with this mr.pakistan?
Because I can loving someone who is real but I can't feel him?I can't touch him?I can't hold him?I can't see him?
Yes.maybe I'm being crazy but not at all...
I know is weird.but if you ask me "yola,are you really2 loving this stranger?" I just wanna answer "I do.yes I do" yes.I love this stranger with my heart.

Dear my blog,
I know,many things is so complicated to understanding but,this is my new story.my new love story with mr.pakistan and I do I love him...
Honestly,tonight I'm so worry...
I won't a bad things visit my life again when I still with my xboyfriend.

Dear my blog,did you think he love me?did he love me like as I did?if your answer is no,I won't to hear that.because I won't to broke everything I built so far..
Dear my blog,you know what?I love this stranger with my heart.all my heart even I dont know he love me TRUE OR NOT.

dear my blog,I just believe everything is gonna be alright cause we had Allah.we had a same God.
Dont you think,many humans in this world,why Allah sent him for me now?
Many country in this world,why I fell in lve with the guy from pakistan?
I know...he is my exam from Allah,can I keep him to stay with me?or NOT?that's a Secret.
And I believe Allah have a beautiful plan for you and me my beloved. :) :')

Fawad,I know I can't to hope more from this relationship.because I'm still worry to make a big hope with this relationship,
Cause you always affraid to hurt me,you affraid we dont get marry together.even I know u wouldn't hurt me.
Even I always make u sure everything is gonna be alright...
Baby,you know..I'm affraid too,but I won't you can see that.
And you must to know,I love you.my love still growing everyday...and I love you with my heart..

Fawad,are you bored with me?if the answer is yes I won't to hear that because I won't to leave you and I won't to make everything is over.

Fawad,do you love me?u can answer this question if u already with everything and when I'm sure,the word "are you bored with me" is gone from my mind :)

i cry,and i feel

Tonight..
When you said something gonna happend is so make me worried!
I ask you, "what we gonna do with our relationship?"
And you make me calm down,
Actually that's useless to make me sure,
But..
It maike me cry to thingking about you..
Honey,
You know,
I was fell in with you..
Since you gave me a happiness,I know..
I want you!
Just you..
YOU!!!

Tonight,I cry and I feel,
Because I love you..and I need you!

little poetry for my mr.Bigones :)

Here,i sit alone.
In the quite,and in the dark.
I don't know where you are,
But i can saw you in my eyes,
Far..far away from my sigh,
Walked with your foot,
Smile with your lips,
And see anything with your eyes,
Here,im alone..
And i dreaming about you,
And i saw you with my mind.

Fariz Gaffar Ahmad

Ok,dongeng gue kali ini soal seorang cowok yang gak terlalu penting dan gak pernah jadi atau berusaha berubah menjadi sesuatu yang penting.Terutama dalam hidup gue.
Masih sangat gue inget.Nama cowok ini FARIZ GAFFAR AHMAD.biasa dipanggil Fariz baik gue atau temen-temen yang lainnya.
Seinget gue,pertama kali kenal dia di kelas IXE kelas gue pas smp kelas 3. (Jaman itu sih di sebut kelas 9) waktu itu gue sama sekali gak kenal sama dia.karena gue emang gak pernah sekelas sama dia sebelumnya.

Si "Fariz" ini anaknya sederhana kalo menurut gue.karena,denger dari cerita temen-temen dia itu bapaknya tajir.Tapi,dia kalo pulang ttp aja sama mamang2 ojek.itu yang buat gue salut sama dia.
Dan itu salah satu hal yang bisa buat gue tertarik sama dia.
Awalnya,gue emang udah ngerasa kalo dia anak paling manis di kelas IXE gue itu.Gimana enggak?badannya tinggi kayak perenang,hidung mancung keturunan arab,dan warna kulit khas orang india yang gak putih dan gak item juga.

Waktu itu,masih gue inget bgt.gue suka sama dia,dan temen-temen pada ngeledekin gue setiap senyum2 di kelas.mereka gak pernah perduli apa sebenernya yang buat gue senyum.walaupun sebenernya gak selalu dia yang buat gue senyum2 manyun di kelas.tapi satu hal,si "Fariz" ini anaknya kurang agresif.kaku.dingin.dan berasa gak bakal bisa di jangkau.

Nyatanya,setelah gue tau dari temen-temen kalo dia juga naksir gue sampe ahir tahun pelajaran pun gak pernah ada sekata "suka" pun yang dia ungkapin ke gue.
Sepanjang kelas 3 itu,gue dan dia selalu duduk deketan.gak tau jodoh atau enggak.tapi,karena kelas gue sistem duduknya roling.alhasil,kalo gak gue yang di depan dia,ya dia yang di depan gue.dan selalu sebelahan..pokoknya masalah roling ini susah buat di jelasin deh (anggap ngerti aja yah :) ).

Sering banget gue dan dia sepandangan.mata-ketemu-mata.setiap kali gue nempelin muka ke meja arah kiri atau kanan,selalu barengan ama dia.alhasil,muka tomat lah gue jadinya.
Pernah waktu itu,saat les sore gue di bisikin sama temen gue yang namanya ega.dia bilang si "Fariz" liatin gue.dan pas gue liat dia,dia langsung pura2 gak tau kayak kura-kura congek.hahahaha

Dan intinya,sampai ahirnya kita pisah SMA tetep gak pernah ada jadian Sama cowok india-arab ini.

Gue gak pernah ketemu lagi atau kontek2an sama dia.secara,dari smp gue dan dia gak pernah smsan..walaupun cuma buat nanyain pr.itu gak pernah berlaku antara gue dan si "Fariz" ini.

Sekerang,gue udah SMA.gue dan dia gak pernah ketemu "lagi" sampe sekarang.gue gak tau apa kabarnya dia.walaupun dia temen fb gue,tp ttp aja gue dan dia gak begitu deket.yaaa,kayak smp lah,
Tp ahirnya pas gue di kelas 2 SMA semester 2 terakhiran gue tiba-tiba ke inget sama si cowok india-arab ini.
Gue kangen liat wajahnya,dan dia dtg ke mimpi gue,pake baju pesiar sekolahnya sekarang.
Menurut gue,dalam mimpi itu gak ada yang berubah dari dia,cuma lebih dewasa dan lebih terbuka.

Setelah kejadian itu,gue berusaha buat nyari tau kabar dia dari tmn gue yang bisa gue hubungin.namanya rangga.dan gue jadi semakin deket sama rangga.
Tapi sayangnya,si "Fariz" ini ttp sama kayak dulu.gak peka.waktu pertama kali dia sms gue.itu bener-bener kali pertama.karena sebelumnya gue dan dia gak pernah smsan.tapi setelah beberapa hari.BUZZZZ..dia ngilang lagi.

Ya,gue jadi males dan gak niat lagi buat nyari tau tentang si cowok india-arab smp gue ini.
Semakin lama,gue semakin gak inget sama dia,walaupun si rangga masih suka ngingetin tapi gue rasanya udah gak sepenasaran dulu.dan gue,rasa mungkin ini efeck dari titik jenuh gue.

Sayangnya,malam minggu tanggal 2 Agustus 2010 tepatnya jam 21:29 WIB dia sms gue LAGI!!!
Dan malam ini pun juga.
Dan kalian tau apa yang ada di benak gue sekarang? Gue lagi nyari tau gimana caranya gue tau apa yang gue rasain sekarang.karena jujur,gue gak sadar dan gak tau apa yang gue rasain sama si cowok india-arab ini,
Dan jangan lupa.namanya FARIZ GAFFAR AHMAD.