finally,everything is OVER and make me totaly regret. :)

This time,
When I know u're not what I needed anymore!
But I'm HAPPY...:) still happy with eerything I had.and I don't care what I lose,
When I post this,I know everything is over :)

finally,everything is OVER and make me totaly regret. :)

This time,
When I know u're not what I needed anymore!

i dont know how to keep my boyfriend in the right way

Honestly..maybe I can looks like a stupid girl if I tell you about my weakness.
But I knew..that I always in the wrong ways to keep my boyfriend.
CAN YOU EXPLAIN ME HOW TO KEEP BOYFRIEND IN THE RIGHT WAY?
If you can,you should to let me know.quickly!

Everyday,when my heart is blooming I caring my boyfriend much and anytime.
But I don't know...that's can make he's happy or not.
Everytime I give my love with all my heart many and everytime.
But I don't know...that's can make he's bored with me or not.
Everyway I did to protect and understand about him,
But I don't know...that's can make he's won't to leave me or not.

So,now you got it?
U started to understand what the meaning about I can't to keep my boyfriend in the right way?
Maybe,many thing be my reasson.
One is I don't really know everything about boys?
Or I'm still young to know about that?oh come on..I'm teenager..
And I'm not a little girl like a baby!

LOSER.
And I won't be a loser when my boyfriend choose to leave me.
Even I don't know what the problem.

I always be a Spoilt n shy girl in my relationship..
And so arogant to show what I feel.
If I'm jalous I won't to let him know.. I always hidden even that make me so worry.
If I got angry I won't to show him,because I won't to looks like a temprament girl.
I just hidden everything and do you think that right ?
I mean do you think that's make every boy happy?
Cause I won't to push my boy.
Than I allowed him to do what he want to do.

And unfortunatelly..I guess what I did is good.good for my relation.
So,
Tell me how to keep my relationship in the right way.and also what can make he comfort with me. WOULD YOU? :)

i try,but i cant to more hope!

This story still about my relationship with somebody is so far away with me.ya.about him!
Last week,in 26 of august,we had our anniversary 1 month.
So happy,but...I don't know.what I will get from everything I try to built.
Like useless..unwork and kind of that.

Now is 3 of september 2010.
Honestly,I started to feel everything is more impposible when 1 of september.
When september just came.
Ya Allah,why u gave him for me?
Ya Allah,why u sent him to compain me now?
That's always around in my mind..
If you wanna answer,
That because you know he can make me open my heart for anyone again?
Because you know he can make me happy so you sent him to compain me?

Actually,maybe you right my dear god.he's can make me opened my heart AGAIN.
He can make me happy everytime with him..
But in the fact,evrything feel so fake!
Fake in my eyes,in my heart,in my mind.
And unfortunately I fell in love!that's my unlucky.
So unlucky to fell in love with someone I can't see and I can't feel.
Unlucky,I can't to watch him everytime I want,I can't to know the real thing about him.I can't to see him averytime I want,I can't to holding my hand with him.even I never do that with anybody before.I mean with my xboyfriend.even I never do that..

He's so crime to make me loving him even I don't know,he love me like a real relation or just a fake.

Ok,did u fawad?
Did u gave me your fake heart feeling?
Did u gave me your fake smile?
Did u gave me your fake love?
Everything is fake?
Please answer with big no-no :')

I try to make easier,I try to keep you stay with me untill the right time is come...
And I know,
I really-really know..that everything I try is make me won't to make a big wishes..

Happy B'day my dear sista,Irana gusTYA shaqira ^^

Malem ini,hal yang mau gue ceritain adalah...jreng-jreng,
Ya..udah ketawan dari judulnya lah.ini hari ultah kakak pertama gue.namanya IRANA GUSTYA SHAQIRA.sebagai bocoran ni blog,
Ni cewek udah tua,heheheeh (damai ya kakak ku sayaaaang :p) kali ini umurnya 22 tahun. :)
Setiap malem bobo bareng ama dia.kalo dia si mungkin udah 22 tahun kenal gue,kalo gue mah baru 17 taun.tapi udah tau luar dalem pastinya.soal apa aja tau semua.style ngupil,underwear,suara kentut masing2 iramanya gimana,tauuuu semuanya deh.
Sampe-sampe ya,waktu kecil gue suka "ngemilin" upil dia tau juga.hahahaha..
Pokoknya mungkin dia itu tau semua ttg gue.

Lo tau gak si blog,hari ini gue cuma ngucapin happy b'day ama dia dari bbm aja,ya..Lo tau lah kan,gue orangnya GENGSI tingkat TINGGI.
Gak tau ya,kalo mau sayang2an ama keluarga itu malu ada,gengsi ada.tergolong segan kali ya?pokoknya gue itu orangnya paling gak suka keliatan malu di depan orang lain.gak terkecuali keluarga sendiri.
Jadi kalo gue sayang2an gitu ama keluarga pengen mewek.trus gue harus pasrah jadi muka tomat.
Itu yang gak gue suka.tapi tanpa kalian taupun gue cinta banget sama kalian!

Oh ya,balik lagi ke ultah kak tya,hari ini luar biasa banget...kita pergi makan bareng,termasuk om mifta sama mbak neneng pembantu gue.
Walaupuun harus sedih karena ninggalin kuma sendirian huhuhu T_T
,tapi kuma pasti maklum buat hari besar kak tya ini :)

Balik dari sana,sekarang gue duduk berdua ama dia (kak tya) tapi dia gak nyadar deh gue lagi buat blog buat dia :)
Gilanya lagi,turun dari mobil pun dia bilang "pasti lagi nulis blog deh"
Yaaaa,lo bener banget sist,
Dan sayangnya lo gak tau kalo blog ini gue tulis tentang Lo,hari ultah Lo! :) ♥

Sista,I wanna tell you something..

Makasi ya selama ini selalu baik sama gue,
Selalu ada buat gue,
Inget banget sist,pas lo nyeramahin karena gue abis putus ama mantan gue sebelum gue pacaran sama fawad..
Makasi karena selalu bisa nerima kekurangan gue yang nyatanya emang lebih banyak dari kelebihan gue,
Makasi karena selalu anter jemput gue,
Dengerin curhat gue
Nraktir gue kalo banyak rezeky,
Selalu mau foto2in gue,
Ya..timbal balik lah,
Dan makasi juga selalu perhatian dan perduli sama gue yang bawel ini,...
•Kak tya,gue cinta banget sama lo,karena lo kakak gue sampe kapan juga.
Semoga kita selalu sama2 sampe ultah lo yang berikut2nya....

Love you much as I did to love daddy,mommy,sista fika and jauza...

Love...yola ♥

should i ?

Dear my bloggydoggy,
Maybe this time I will tell you about him...
I will tell you about my heart feeling..
I don't know how can to start this,I don't know...now he bought me headache..
I'm crying now?no!I'm not..
Because I know,he never wanna give he's tears for me..
So,how can I spent my tears to him?
Today,I was so empty!I know something changed he's feeling with me,
I know,I realise,and I feel...

Dear you my blog,can you tell me everything is gonna be alright?
I don't care how could you,I don't care how would you...I just wanna know,
That's what happened to me,I know everything is gonna be alright.MAYBE...

If you tought that's I fell in love with the wrong person,so...what can I do?should I forget him?should I leaving him?should I to make everything is over?
Oh come on!I won't to be a loser for twice,
Loser cause I try to lying with my self.I lying cause,actually I need him.

There is many thing happened since he came to my life.I can opened mt heart,I can laugh,I can smile and I can to alowed him to make me fell in with him..
But,he said he won't to make me hurt.and than what did u do now?
Don't you think this is can make everything be so trouble?

Maybe I never know if I didn't ask you about this,
But should I to ask with you before I realise that by my self?

Everything - Lifehouse

THANKS TO GAVE ME THIS SONG....Fawad,

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?






Than,I can't to tell you...