i dont know how to keep my boyfriend in the right way

Honestly..maybe I can looks like a stupid girl if I tell you about my weakness.
But I knew..that I always in the wrong ways to keep my boyfriend.
CAN YOU EXPLAIN ME HOW TO KEEP BOYFRIEND IN THE RIGHT WAY?
If you can,you should to let me know.quickly!

Everyday,when my heart is blooming I caring my boyfriend much and anytime.
But I don't know...that's can make he's happy or not.
Everytime I give my love with all my heart many and everytime.
But I don't know...that's can make he's bored with me or not.
Everyway I did to protect and understand about him,
But I don't know...that's can make he's won't to leave me or not.

So,now you got it?
U started to understand what the meaning about I can't to keep my boyfriend in the right way?
Maybe,many thing be my reasson.
One is I don't really know everything about boys?
Or I'm still young to know about that?oh come on..I'm teenager..
And I'm not a little girl like a baby!

LOSER.
And I won't be a loser when my boyfriend choose to leave me.
Even I don't know what the problem.

I always be a Spoilt n shy girl in my relationship..
And so arogant to show what I feel.
If I'm jalous I won't to let him know.. I always hidden even that make me so worry.
If I got angry I won't to show him,because I won't to looks like a temprament girl.
I just hidden everything and do you think that right ?
I mean do you think that's make every boy happy?
Cause I won't to push my boy.
Than I allowed him to do what he want to do.

And unfortunatelly..I guess what I did is good.good for my relation.
So,
Tell me how to keep my relationship in the right way.and also what can make he comfort with me. WOULD YOU? :)

i try,but i cant to more hope!

This story still about my relationship with somebody is so far away with me.ya.about him!
Last week,in 26 of august,we had our anniversary 1 month.
So happy,but...I don't know.what I will get from everything I try to built.
Like useless..unwork and kind of that.

Now is 3 of september 2010.
Honestly,I started to feel everything is more impposible when 1 of september.
When september just came.
Ya Allah,why u gave him for me?
Ya Allah,why u sent him to compain me now?
That's always around in my mind..
If you wanna answer,
That because you know he can make me open my heart for anyone again?
Because you know he can make me happy so you sent him to compain me?

Actually,maybe you right my dear god.he's can make me opened my heart AGAIN.
He can make me happy everytime with him..
But in the fact,evrything feel so fake!
Fake in my eyes,in my heart,in my mind.
And unfortunately I fell in love!that's my unlucky.
So unlucky to fell in love with someone I can't see and I can't feel.
Unlucky,I can't to watch him everytime I want,I can't to know the real thing about him.I can't to see him averytime I want,I can't to holding my hand with him.even I never do that with anybody before.I mean with my xboyfriend.even I never do that..

He's so crime to make me loving him even I don't know,he love me like a real relation or just a fake.

Ok,did u fawad?
Did u gave me your fake heart feeling?
Did u gave me your fake smile?
Did u gave me your fake love?
Everything is fake?
Please answer with big no-no :')

I try to make easier,I try to keep you stay with me untill the right time is come...
And I know,
I really-really know..that everything I try is make me won't to make a big wishes..